Friday, December 31, 2010

The Lord is good

Lately I've had a lot more time to engulf myself in my scriptures and other resources of The Church. And Ho-ly cow! I can't even remember the last time I felt this good, felt so much love, and so much peace. It's incredible.
Every day I have received an answer to my prayers, or a reassurance, or a simple reminder as to why I am where I am. It's nice to know Heavenly Father answers prayers in a way that benefits us the most.

President Ezra Taft Benson said: "Does the Lord promise and not fulfill? Surely if He tells us that these things will come to us if we lay hold upon His word, then the blessings can be ours. And if we do not, then the blessings may be lost. However diligent we may be in other areas, certain blessings are to be found only in the scriptures, only in coming to the word of the Lord and holding fast to it as we make our way through the mists of darkness to the tree of life."

may I repeat.."However diligent we may be in other areas, certain blessings are to be found only in the scriptures..."

I can testify of that. These past 6 months or so of my life I've learned to search my scriptures, and truly study them. Not just read. I have received so many blessings from them that I haven't fully noticed or acknowledged until now.

And what a great reminder as the New Year approaches and while we are setting new goals to achieve in these next months. I hope we all put this as a big priority in our life. I know the Lord will bless those who feast upon His words and internalize His teachings.

Remember: "The Lord is more concerned with what a man is than with what he was, and with where he is than with where he has been."
-Elder F. Burton Howard

Saturday, December 25, 2010

patience

-Patience is far more than simply waiting for something to happen--
-Patience is not passive resignation, nor is it failing to act because of our fears
-Patience means active waiting and enduring
-Patience means staying with something and doing all that you can--working, hoping, and exercising faith; bearing hardship with fortitude, even when the desires of our hearts are delayed

*Every one of us is called to wait in our own way. We wait for answers to prayers. We wait for things which at the time may appear so right and so good to us that we can’t possibly imagine why Heavenly Father would delay the answer.

*Often we can’t see the Lord’s hand in our lives until long after trials have passed. Often the most difficult times of our lives are essential building blocks that form the foundation of our character and pave the way to future opportunity, understanding, and happiness.

*Patience means to abide in faith, knowing that sometimes it is in the waiting rather than in the receiving that we grow the most.

Story of my life the past 3 months. Do you think Heavenly Father is trying to tell me something?
haha. I think so, and I think I'm finally understanding it. Fully understanding

here

Thursday, December 23, 2010

rededicate your life

ya know, it's interesting what all this "free time" can do to someone.
Although I have already gone insane 5 times this break, it's gonna keep occurring until I figure out my thoughts and feelings.
Let me introduce you to my mind..
and my heart.
(fasten your seat belts children, you're in for a ride)

To make things not so awkward for everyone involved in the situation.. we won't share why these feelings first started. Just know that they did. Kind of like babies. But actually not at all....

These past 3 weeks or so I have had some interesting conversations with the Lord. I'm lost, completely lost in what I need to be doing right now. Because if you would have asked me a month ago I knew exactly what I was going to do. Now, not so much. It's funny how such little time changes everything. So now I've been questioning, trying to find some light on the situation. And the only light and peace that I receive is that of something I'm not sure I want to even go there again.. I had some strong feelings in the past of being patient with a certain situation and giving it time. There was a lot of good that came from it and reasons that I am just being able to see why things happened the way they did. I grew so much and learned a lot about myself from this experience and grew to love and trust my Savior even more than I had before. We're tight now, He and I
But the only peace I got was the peace that came when the Lord told me to be patient and things will work out how He wants them to.

That was over two months ago. I finally accepted what happened and was ready to move on..
But surprise,
here I am.. those thoughts came back full force about 3 weeks ago and I have ignored them until last week.

Now by ignoring them I mean that I'm actually now acknowledging that I need to probably figure out why I have been feeling this way lately. I haven't acted upon these thoughts and impressions because I don't even know how I personally feel about them. All I know is that I am feeling something a lot more than just my own thoughts and feelings. I'm feeling the spirit, and by that I'm feeling peace when those impressions come to me. Strong peace.
Peace is the only feeling Satan can not imitate.
that says something, right?

my heart is..
hopeful
finally understanding the past situation
forgiving and forgiven
trusting in the Lord-
but still on the mend
looking for another shot
and peaceful about it as well
and ready to let someone in..

my mind is...
confused, yet clear
excited
wanting a new adventure
open to new things,
as well as second chances
and extremely at ease
(when I go to my thoughts in the temple and the impressions I have been talking about)

It makes sense in my mind and in my heart, those impressions just make sense. Just like it's supposed to when something is right. Now if only it were that easy..

so what do I do? I don't know. Advice? Please. I know you probably don't get much from the story, but one day I will explain it all. In the mean time I could use some words of encouragement.

and you can tell me to be patient, but if you do I might come after you with a shot gun. I've heard that word way too many times this past semester. At least come up with a different word for it, then I won't take it so badly.

and I do want to say sorry, you are all probably really confused. And I don't know how to express my emotions very with technology, I'm still trying to be better in person with it. All I can say is that I know the feelings that I felt in the Temple. I know the impressions I received and the peace I have felt when I received them. I know that the Lord gives Personal Revelation. I know the Spirit gives peace to uneasy situations. and I know that it has been the Lord trying to tell me do to something, that I may be too scared to do..

now this is where you come in with advice.. ready, go!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

It's that time again

finals.
.....yay....

There is something about being in the Library that literally makes me go insane and tests my patience. People don't know how to be quiet. I feel that I have come a long ways from last fall finals in the sense that maybe I'm a lot more patient than I used to be. And more kind.
I find that true in every situation but one...
when I'm trying to study.. I'm trying to study.
That in itself is a huge deal. I come to the Library to get away from distractions of roommates, Christmas lights, my guitar, playing with paperclips, and any other possible thing I can find that will take my mind away from the things I should be trying to accomplish.
But alas, there are those few people who find it alright to sit and talk in the quiet study area.
As much as I'm sure I would love you if I got to know you.. I don't exactly care about your dating drama, (successes...maybe. But drama, No) you complaining about how hard your life is because you have two finals on the same day, or how you have no clean clothes nor any food.

So, with that being said.. If you want me to stay nice and mostly pleasant during this week of heck, you will quietly leave the premises and go find somewhere else to talk.
Because after all, I don't think you understand... I have 3 finals in two days.

Thank you

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

ode to.....


Nicole Marie Lewis
I just kind of like her. A lot.

Nicole and I have had some wonderful times together.
We got to experience Michael up close and personal, make amazing dinners together, late night chats, pep talks right before break ups, share clothing and our love for mama lamb's home cooking and holiday socks. I love Nicole. She is honestly one of the greatest examples of a true friend. She is always there and still loves me after knowing how dorky I can be. (I make her laugh though) I love teasing her and her fuzz head. But mostly about boys. hehe.

I'm sure gonna miss this woman when she treks off into a new chapter of her life...But I want her to know that she will always remain one of my best friends and Nicole, I look up to you so much and admire your love and friendship towards others. As cheesy as this sounds, you honestly have changed my life and I'm so glad I've been able to live with you these past 3 years.
I love you!

You're beautiful Nicole!

Friday, November 26, 2010

grandpa's say the darndest things...

weston: "Grandpa, you guys sure have a lot of mood lights in your house. What have you been doing?!?"
grandpa: "Well, when you're my age you have to be in the mood. That's the only time the magic happens."

I love holidays! Mostly because things like this happen. This is one of many instances that grandpa has said things like this. If you're lucky I might post more..

Happy (late) Thanksgiving!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

a new life

Whoever thought that I would be so torn about getting my braces off?
I was really nervous that I would get them off and be ugly.. ha!
But alas, I am a new woman.
Bring on the new life
A life where I don't constantly have to worry about things being in my teeth
A life where my lips don't get caught on my braces when I laugh really hard (it happened a lot.)
A life where people won't mistake me for a little child.
And most importantly, a life where my teeth don't freeze and ache in the shivering temperatures of Logan when I smile outside.

Naked teeth, I think we will get along just nicely.


Monday, October 18, 2010

One week team.


Yes, I thought this day would never come.
But ONE week.
until I don't look 14 anymore!
It is time for the last goodbyes, the buses are loading.
everyone, say adios!



Saturday, October 2, 2010

sometimes...

...I'm creative.
and do nice things for nice people on their birthdays.
Friday was Milo's birthday and kelsie and I decided to do something out of the ordinary.
We were thinking about Milo's obsessions: Star Trek, Astronomy, Yellow Crocs, Elmo..
We decided to make him these:

Yes, I know. Elmo Cupcakes. So freaking fun to make.
And they are adorable.
Maybe I'll start a business.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

proposition.

Let's all ditch school next week and go on a vacation.
Mexico?
Puerto Vallarta?
Spain?

All in favor, say I.

I

Monday, September 6, 2010

make old things new

so school has started, again.
And what a long first week of school!
(thank goodness for holidays to make the second week shorter)
But I feel good about this year! It's a brand new start.

new classes
new professors
new subjects
new challenges
new growth
new people
new campus route
new routine
new ward
new calling
new bishopric
new goals

It's going to be nice. Looking back on my blog, I remember talking about how much I dreaded change. I won't lie, I still have a hard time with it but now have a better understanding that all change is good if you have that attitude. God truly knows that is best for me and that's why he puts change into my life. His timing is the right timing. I'm glad I finally have my eyes open to see Him working in my life.

I feel so good about life! I am confident and so incredibly happy. I know it is because of the church in my life. I would be lying if I said that I didn't have a foundation of Christ. That is why I am so happy. He makes me happy. And through Christ and Heavenly Father, I am able to receive so many blessings when I obey them. Blessings of wisdom, friends, talents, happiness, light. I owe everything to them.

I actually got the calling of Relief Society 1st Counselor and couldn't me more nervous. Although I am really excited, I also felt very inadequate. Going into a whole new ward with new members and people would be a big wall if I didn't have the knowledge to rely on my Savior for help. Luckily I learned how to do that really fast this summer through EFY. I'm grateful for every experience, good and bad, that I have had to lead me up to this point in my life. They have shaped me into the person and I am and will continue to do so the rest of my time here on earth.
I love my Savior and Heavenly Father.


oh! And guess what?!

.... I auditioned for a select choir at the institute called Latter-Day Voices (LDV)...
.....and.....
I MADE IT!

yay! :)


Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Christin

Christin got married last Friday, and boy was it a party! I think that was the main theme of last week--getting married. Clearly I was not on the ball with that one. But nonetheless it was beautiful! It was so much fun to be together with all the girls again and to be with Christin and Taylor on their special day. They literally are perfect for each other.

(before I switched the lighting on this picture, the only thing you could see of Sian was her pearly whites. But no body whatsoever. I guess it happens in the dark when you're black. At least this time there weren't any bikes around.)


Nicole was the fortunate one to catch the flowers. Although, I'm not sure if "catch" is the most appropriate word in this situation. It was more like they happened to bash her. Rather forcefully. Right on the noggin. It was a good laugh for the rest of us, but looks like she's next!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

overdue

So if this blogging thing were an assignment, I'm pretty sure I would have failed by now. Talk about procrastination. Oops. You'll get over it, I know you will. And besides, I have a pretty good excuse as to why my blogging sessions have been few if not extinct the past little bit.

These past couple months have been quite life changing for me to say the least. I was able to play with the youth of the church all summer long and help them come closer to our Savior. I can't think of anything else I'd want to do with my spare time. (besides playing tennis and laying outside...but that's not the point.) I did 9 weeks of EFY this summer in Ogden, Logan, Provo, and Twin Falls, Idaho. I can honestly say that each week was incredible and became my favorite. I can't pick just one. Through this summer I was continually amazed at each of these youth that I got to know. Each person comes from such a different background but all ended up leaving EFY changed in one way or another. I might have the slightest clue now as to what missionaries feel like while helping people change and better themselves. After all, the purpose of the Gospel is to make Bad men good, and good men better. I've seen that happen a lot this summer.

I realize I have a lot of catching up to do with my blog posts, but oh boy! Don't you even fret! I will write about each week of EFY that I did. So you can be expecting more from me to come! Brace yourself. You're gonna love it.

On another note, school starts in two weeks! And it needs to hurry because I miss all my home-doggies. Nicole, you hurry back from Wyoming 'ya hear? Britny moves back to Utah for good on Thursday! Thank freaking goodness. It'll be a party up in huuuuur.

....to be continued....

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

love



I've been thinking a lot lately about choices in life
and man, do I need help with these.
It seems that ever since Graduation, life changes so quickly. Pretty much every week brings a new and unexpected change.
I don't cope with change well, I am trying to be more accepting of the opportunities that will come of other things leaving, but i can never fully grasp that concept.
I'm not a patient person
I like to know where I am going in life
as well as when certain things will happen.
I like to control things..
and when it comes down to it, there are a lot of things that are out of my control.
the only way I can get through certain situations that are unknown is with my heavenly father and his guidance.

I tell you, He is a very loving man
how?
I'm still trying to figure that out.
at times I don't feel worthy of his love or advice
(those are the times I need it the most)
I've learned a lot of things from Him this past year. a lot.
and I'm still amazed by his love.

I feel bad that I don't stay patient enough with his timing in changes.
and how sometimes I don't fully trust the life he wants me to lead.
He has pulled me outside of my comfort zone on many situations, and you know what?
I'm a better person now.
I have learned to trust Him. And I testify that He knows what He's doing.

He knows who to send in your life to help you become stronger.
To influence you make choices, good or bad.
He has given me my best friends.
Some of who are on missions or in Evenston,WY (come back?..)

I love the Lord.

a bright missionary was inspired to tell me once...

"I hope you don't consume yourself with wishing for things that others have or that you don't have yet. Be patient and trust in the Lord. Focus on others and worry about them and the Lord will worry about you."

I think my problem is not that I don't love enough, It's that I don't show it enough.
my heart is full of love for every one I meet.
But do I let them know? no, probably not nearly as much as I should.

If I show my love and affection to those around me, my life will be brighter.
I will want to serve.
I will desire to help them
And through helping them, I will feel the Lords love in my life.
it will be easier to trust his judgment.
it will be easier to put my life into his hands, to shape me to who I need to be.

I can't wait for the day that I get to have a family of my own to love and teach.
and I know whoever I will spend the rest of eternity with is out there.
I already love him.(whoever he is)
and he will love me.
We will teach our children the importance of love, even before they are born.
They will know of Christ, our Redeemer.
that he lives and loves.
he suffered that we may not suffer
the atonement, and the crucial part it plays in our daily life.
We will teach them the importance of the temple.
and I hope to be able to really have them know the love that the Lord has for them.




Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Michael Bublé

Ok. I know, I know.
I've been slacking.
But in all reality, I was just trying to create loads of suspense for this post...

...did it work?

As we all know, I'm in love with Michael Steven Bublé
He is my everything.
With him I am never lost.
He gives me crazy love, and lots of it.
I just want him to be home with me.
...ok and I'm done...


But March 31st was by far the greatest day of my entire life. Nicole and I went to the E-center to enjoy ourselves some incredibly dang good looking and somber singing, Michael.
And oh boy! He was incredibly good looking in his suit and tie.. singing nice melodious songs.. stole my heart from the moment he opened his show with Cry Me A River.
(now every time I listen to this particular song, I always picture Michael's silhouette leading the band in the back ground.)


He continued to melt our hearts by singing all of my favorite songs and more.
a few he played..
Everything
Home
Haven't Met You Yet
Georgia
Crazy Love
a crazy awesome Michael Jackson impersonation
That's Life
How Sweet It Is
At This Moment
and many many more.


Speaking of the Michael Jackson song he did...
Check it out... here!

At one point in the night we were precisely two feet away from Mr. Buble.
Needless to say, I love him!
I will see him again
no matter the cost!

Michael, If you read this....

Marry me?? Let me make you happy!

You mean happiness to me..
say it's me that you adore
I am your everything, you just haven't met me yet.




p.s. I tried uploading a video probably 7 times, no can do apparently.. I'll try again some other day.. and hopefully it'll work. Cause I would like Michael to sing to you...











Tuesday, April 27, 2010

born to be wilde

remember Mercedes?
my first roommate ever?
Well, on Friday April 23, 2010 she was sealed to the love of her life for time and all eternity in the Bountiful temple.

Needless to say, she looked gorgeous!


Roommates (i LOVE this picture)


Sade was so glad Huss was able to be in attendance for her special day
(look at how happy she is!)



Congrats Brandon and Sade Wilde!

Friday, April 23, 2010

I want to be a part of it...

New York, New York
Spring Break came and went way too fast (so did this past month and a half I've been meaning to inform you on my adventures in the big apple) but nonetheless, It was a well needed break from school and extremely nice to see my 2 peeps that are exploring the east coast. Although the rain put a DAMPer on things, did it get us down? NO! It made it all the more fun!

Britny and I walking around the streets passing time for Candace to come


reunited again


we paid our friend Tim Burton a visit.
He's just as messed up as I remember him, if not more


cousins


times square


our ticket to happiness! aka the farriswheel in Toys R' Us


beautiful black man, Brit's boy, that we saw and met at stomp. He was incredible!


I've been inspired to star in my own stomp


Tom Hanks played on this...as did we. That pretty much makes us famous.



took a trip to D.C.


My adorable tour guide


ultimate joy


I look like a sister missionary...


spent some time in jail


U.S. OPEN anyone?? Arthur Ashe Stadium!


St. Patties day in NY... craziest thing ever. Try 10 am and everyone is already wasted.

Other important things:

"Hi Blond-ie"
Chicago Musical
Obama condoms
seeing Obama at the white house
Metro = Space Mountain
China Town
Spinach Artichoke Pizza
Subway Rats
Juniors Cheesecake
Plaza Hotel
Green M & M's
Stardust Diner


Thanks Brit for letting me stay with you! Can I come again soon?? :)

P.S. stay tuned for Michael in all his glory.




Saturday, March 27, 2010

so this one time..

Nicole and I have found our inner chefs.
and don't you worry, this meal is probably a weekly occurrence in our apartment.


completely homemade..
delicious..
fluffy..
mouth-watering..
savory..

Chicken Alfredo Pizza


please remember to wipe up the drool you may or may not have left while reading this post.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

There will be no sleeping

Alas, the time has come!
The countdown is
over!
(well, at least this countdown)
I have arrived...
Here I am, sitting in the SLC airport..
just mingling around D10,
the gate that will board me onto the airplane..
which then will take me to NYC!
wow.
I can't believe it's actually here!
Spring Break!
So very needed,
it couldn't have come at a better time.

But NEW YORK!
Flip! I will be reunited with two of my BEST friends!
partying all the day long.
shopping.
musical watching.
people stalking.
Irish men kissing
(in honor of St. Patties of course!)

hopefully I find me an Irish man to kiss...
If not, there are some pretty good actors that could fake an Irish accent,
that will have to suffice.


I can't wait to visit the lovely bakery of the one and only, Cake Boss.
eat delicious food
Little Italy
China Town
Times Square
Central Park
D.C.

GOOD GOSH!!
if you can't tell, I'm quite thrilled about the upcoming events.
and don't you fret, pictures will be taken.
lots.
So it'll almost be like you were in attendance with me.


Please stay tuned.


goodbye cache valley, davis county, and utah in general....
Heeeeeeello NYC.
I'm excited to experience the city that never sleeps.
which also leads to no sleeping by me.
sorry brit. hehe.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

There may be contention in the land.

Meet Melissa Ann Holm


5'5''
blue eyes
brown hair (but constantly changing)
Caucasian
DOB: July 13, 1988
witty
loud
improv professional
imaginative
crazy
blunt
creative



Meet Sian N'Lice Smith


5'3''
brown eyes
black hair (never changing)
Black
DOB: Feb. 17, 1989
out of control
sarcastic
boisterous
deafening
fiery
unrestrained
impulsive



We don't know how it happened, but a war has begun between Melissa and Sian. The first sign of trouble was the screaming match between these two. Sian loudly proclaimed her existence from the second story window while Melissa Holm was crossing the parking lot only in destination of returning to her apartment. This is when the predicament started. Melissa and Sian continued to boldy state their differences towards each other when Melissa ended with saying "I hate your mother and I hate your father. I hate you and your offspring."

Sian wasn't too pleased with Melissa having said the last words in their argument and stormed into her room with a desired plan in mind. She proceeded to hang up this sign on GC #6 door.


When Melissa saw this disturbing note on our door, she knew she had to retaliate and not let Sian have victory over her. But when she was planning on do this, none of us knew. Late monday night we get a couple knocks and rings of our door bell and proceed to say come in. ...No response. I walk over to the door in wonder of who could be waiting on the other side. When the door opens and no one seems to be around, I look both directions. Then, noticed out of the corner of my eye something on our door. As I pull this strange paper off the door and proceed to go inside, I can't help but laugh. I call for Sian to show her the cruel evidence.

Not only was this posted on our door, but it was posted all over the Garden Court complex. On all the doors. In warning for all the females living in the premises. (why we were brought into this "impregnating" stuff is still a mystery) Ms. Smith was not pleased to say the least.

Needless to say, the war has just begun...


Tuesday, February 16, 2010

home sick

word of caution: this post is most likely cheesy. Get over it. Thank you

so.. this one time, I felt home sick.
not just any home sick.
heavenly home sick.

is that weird?
strange?
not normal?

I don't know what it was about these past couple days, but I've really been longing to be in Heaven at this moment.
Maybe it's the stress and anxiety I have about school,
or about life in general.
but I've never wanted something so bad..
only to be back in a place that I once was so familiar with.
a place where there were no cares, no sorrows, no disappointments.
somewhere filled with loved ones;
family
friends
neighbors
a place where I knew everything was going to be alright.
home sick I tell you.
aching to be somewhere recognizable.
is this weird?

as these feelings have continued through the past couple days, I couldn't help but think about a poem mama lamb shared with me.

Do You Know

Do you know who you are, child of mine
so precious and dear to me?
Do you know you're a part of a great design
that is vast as eternity?
Can you think for a moment how much depends
on your holding the "Iron Rod"
Your life is forever, worlds without end
Do you know you're a child of God?

Do you know where you've been, child of mine
it's hard to recall, I know
Do you remember that home divine
with that Father who loves you so?
Do you sometimes review how he took your hand
and placed it within my own;
Saying, "Here is a child from Angel-land;
Not a gift, but a precious loan."

Do you know where you're going, child of mine?
Are your eyes on the road ahead?
Do the spires of His castle gleam and shine
where the sun grows golden red?
Are you taking enough for your journey, child
does your lamp cast a steady glow?
Can you hold your course when the storm is wild?
You will make it child, I know.



I do review my home in heaven.
numerous times daily actually.
but I sometimes wonder how I got here, to where I am..
and how it is hard to keep that perspective.
sometimes I just want to go home.
to my heavenly home...
just for a day

Then I think of how blessed we are,
temples
scriptures
church
FHE
student wards
general conference
...
prayer

When I remember these,
heaven doesn't seem far away anymore
and my mind becomes clearer
almost as if I'm remembering my heavenly home..



Monday, February 1, 2010

in loving memory

Meet Skillet.


He was a good lil' egg.
treated us well,
always smiling,
and was saved by a life threatening experience when the boys cooked us breakfast.

luckily he was the last in line to be cracked into the frying pan,
We didn't need him at the time.


But, I am sad to say Skillet left his earthly home shortly after this miraculous incident.
He lived a great life.
He survived many trips to make it to the store,
and recently later was adopted into the GC #6 family.

Skillet is survived by his biological mother, Hen, adopted mother, Nicole Lewis, adopted father, Sian Smith, caring siblings, Kjarinda Lambert, Amber Rasmussen, and Emily Flinders.
He was preceded in death by his other 11 egg cart
on siblings and best friends.

Funeral services were not held due to his cremation into a heavenly fruit pizza in his honor.


Thursday, January 21, 2010

must be a resolution thing..

Lately I've been doing a whole lot of this...

and this..


with eating this...

while trying to get some practice on this....

maybe it's operation B.O.N,
or the fact that summer is coming
and we all know what that means..

BUT!

I can't wait for this..

or this with her



p.s. If you want to read something nerve wracking, and totally random.. read this
I witnessed it.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

let's get out of this town tonight

so.. I need to get out of Utah.

really badly. I need to get out and explore the world while I actually can. There are so many places I want to go and oddly enough, I feel like I don't have time. Which I don't. Or at least I won't once I get married and such. So as of right now I have 3 goals. And I will do all I can to make these happen.

1-Go to Jerusalem with Brother Maughn and his group he takes every summer.

2-Visit Linda in London. Which then includes walking onto center court at the Wimbeldon. Enter through the same doors that Roger Federer, the Williams sisters, and many more have so eagerly stepped through in hopes to become the new champion.

3-Serve in Ecuador. Kelsie and Camille have both had this chance and I've only heard praising things of that opportunity from them since.

I want to travel. More than I ever have before. I would also like to go to Dublin and experience the Irish traditions and accents. But we'll save that one for later. Much later.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about what to do with my life. School is important but for some reason I've been feeling it's ok to take breaks. It's ok to go and do things while I'm young. I want to give my life to serving in one way or another. I want to be a performing missionary in Navuoo. I want to go on a mission one day. I want to visit church sites and expand my knowledge on the teachings and history of the church. Most importantly, I want to give my life to the Lord. I've never felt more desire to do so until this year.

Jerusalem inspired by her adventures in the Holy Land.

Monday, January 11, 2010

remember when

I went to the U2 concert??
best. day. of my whole life.
ever.







until March 31st that is.
Michael is coming
to the e-center.
and you want to know something?
I'm gonna kiss him.
full on lip rape him.
to say it politely.







Sunday, January 10, 2010

dear usu spring 2010


I've missed you
sorta.
I hope you bring lots of motivation and change
seriously though.
Please bring the warm sun soon
i'm in need of color.
and please, please be patient with me
it has been a loooooong break

Monday, January 4, 2010

big lights will inspire you


these streets will make you feel brand new,
big lights will inspire you.
let's hear it for New York.

66 days and counting.
broadway
shopping
china town
Britny Mortensen
hot men
temple
central park
starbucks on every corner
museum
more shopping
D.C. and candace
times square

it's gonna be big.


feel free to donate to my N.Y fund, please.
Every penny is greatly appreciated