Saturday, May 30, 2009

heavenly messages

I love days when you drive slow for no reason but to thoroughly embrace your surroundings.
When someone cuts you off while driving but instead of getting upset, honking your horn, and using colorful words you simply smile and say "they must be in a hurry"
When you drive past the temple and see what seems to be thousands of family and friends gathering in support and happiness about the beginning of an eternal family. Where best friends are sealed together for time and all eternity
I love days when you have random bursts of energy and take it out by dancing around your kitchen
when you don't get ready all day long and don't care how gross you look
when nothing seems to get on your nerves. Not even when your father eats your ice cream that boldly states that it is yours and only yours on the lid
when you really notice how god blesses you in simple little ways
when you really realize how remarkable life really is
I love days like today
whoever knew that temples had mailboxes?!? I sure didn't
I guess you do learn new things everyday..

roger federer

Summer is my favorite time of the year for many reasons. Most particularly; TENNIS. Being able to play outside with friends while the warm rays of sun beat upon your face. Also being able to lay on my couch all day long watching the oh so loved tennis channel while the professionals battle out on the different court surfaces in hopes to becoming number one in the world.
Roger Federer has always been my favorite and always will. I love him. Ugh, so so much! unfortunate for me, he recently got married this past April to his long time girl friend of 9 years. Federer is also expecting to be a father soon. He is going to the cutest little dad there is.
RF,
I love you.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

seems questionable to me..

about my latest post.. It's still in question, especially after talking with the parentals last night and this morning.

USU for fall?
cut the crap and go sing on the street corner to earn money and hopefully be found by some major high rolling record signer...


my answer;

do both.
USU for the fall pros:
I can always finish up my 2nd part of chemistry
live with the greatest girls
party like a rockstar
work the corners (singing, you pervs)
It doesn't feel wrong; I would still live great
finish up my NA at the BATC
live on my own
i'd be happier knowing I were with friends
credit transferring, long story but earning the couple of extra credits this fall would actually cut down my costs at weber.


USU for the fall cons:
job? we're not sure..
tuition costs
student fees
might be harder to sell contract at semester


more confused than ever, although. I dreampt upon it all last night. and called Weber this morning, with more information it now seems as if USU is a very likely possibility. at least for the fall. Now I know you're all thinking, "You got your answer and you're being selfish now." My dear friends, that is not that case I believe. My mother said answers can change due to the time and circumstances that you are in. Things changed a lot from last night to today. I feel confused. But I still feel at ease with USU right now. is this a sign? I'm not sure.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

I've gotta go my own way

Ahem

as most of you know by now, I've just made a big big decision in my life. It was defiantly one of the hardest choices I've had to make on my own but I'm glad I have God to help me through.

After a long process of praying, fasting, and emotional stress; I've finally come the conclusion that God knows best. I had been fighting an answer that I had received quite some time ago because "I wanted" to do what "I thought" was best for me. These past couple months I've fully learned the importance of trusting God and letting him take you by the hand and lead you to where he needs me and where will be best for me. Today I came to grips with it and stopped fighting my answer about leaving utah state. I LOVED utah state and even more so, loved the people there. I had THE greatest roommates, neighbors, and best friends up there. It was the greatest thing, which is why I was trying to convince myself that I didn't need to leave. Every person I met there from my roommates, adopted roommates, guy friends (my big brothers), and even to panda boy had such a remarkable influence on my life. Thank you so much for pushing me to be my best and being such great examples. I'm going to miss you terribly. :(

Utah State is a phenomenal place. The people up there rock and surely know how to get their groove on. haha. Aggie Basketball is harmful, due to the hearing you lose while yelling your heart out at the well known spectrum. Aggie fans are kick A. And the scenery there is even better. I'm going to miss Logan. and plan to visit frequently.

I couldn't put it better than good old High school musical.
It's so hard to say,
but i've got to do what's best for me
You'll be ok (sian and nicole)

We might find our place in this world someday
but at least for now,
I've gotta go my own way
Farewell my fellow aggies! I love you.
utah state hey! aggies all the way
go aggies! Go Aggies!
hey, Hey, HEY!!




waiting in line HOURS before an aggie basketball game. That's how dedicated we are.


Magical things happen on this A. Just maybe not for Sjhawn..

Meet the Challenge.. Big Blue

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Strange things happen in kamas...



so this one time.. my friend Nicole Lewis, formally known as Leona Lewis. You might have heard of her.. she's pretty famous. Anyways.. she got pepper in her eye, and I couldn't help but laugh and snap a few shots of the outcome.

I apologize Leona for my immature actions.

Monday, May 25, 2009

greatest ambitions

For the past couple of days while I've been cooped up inside my humble home, I've had a lot of time to think and reflect on what I really want in life. Which, I still have no idea. I've got a rough list though. Things that make me happy, things that make me sad. Things that I would change in a heart beat, things that I would never consider to change. Just everything that's on my mind right now.

1. I strongly believe in self-confidence, but at times, mine seems to fade
2. I will enjoy school whether it be at USU or somewhere else..
3. Good ol' toasted peanut butter and honey sandwiches are lifes cure for anything
4. everyone has their own spot. and the temple is mine. I drive past the closest temple on average 3 times a week, if not more.
5. the real world scares me, but i'm becoming more ready to conquer that fear.
6. tennis is my everything. If it were a food, I'd eat it daily.
7. I'm still amazed to this day how I got such phenomenal friends. you know who you are
8. i enjoy getting sunburns.
9. in every season of life there is something to celebrate
10. I don't dare think about what my life would be without faith
11. I love mormon movies. they're funny and so ridiculously true.
12. I people watch. and love it
13. there really is no place like home
14. jon and kate plus eight is my all time favorite show
15. i enjoy being me.


Thursday, May 21, 2009

there's always going to be an up hill battle.

I've defiantly learned this the hard way this week. No bueno. It's been a rough week for many different reasons
- I lost 3 of my very best friends this week to missions. Although, I shouldn't complain because I'm terribly excited for them. Kmetzsch, Taylor, and Kasper.. I love you boys! a lot.
- On top of being down and depressed about friends leaving and growing up, I had to get my wisdom teeth out today. I had been dreading it all. week. long. and low and behold it came today
Good news is, I don't remember a thing. I remember laying on the surgery table and being ambushed by two nurses with heart monitors, straps on my wrists and across my body to keep me from "rolling over" (I strongly believe it was to keep me from getting up and running away), checking my blood pressure, and the only awaited IV. I don't remember the IV being put into me really. Once they had strapped me onto the bed, I knew there was no turning back anyways. I remember the nurse telling me to pump my fist so she could give me the IV, then a little pinch, and then I remember waking up in the recovery room.. nothing else was in my brain. It was quite weird. I enjoyed it though. haha yes, enjoyed it. Today hasn't been too bad with pain because mama lamb has taken incredible care of me by switching my gauze, getting me my gourmet food that consists of apple sauce, mashed potatoes, scrambled eggs, and apple juice. We'll see what tomorrow brings though. I'm going to be pretty sore, or so I hear. 3 out of 4 of my wisdom teeth were impacted. awesome. I know. so come visit?? I've been pretty bored today.. or at least call me or something. Who knows. I might entertain you. Jordan Juarez came over today about 7 minutes after I got home from the hospital, and I do not remember him coming whatsoever. Mama Lamb stated that he took pictures and video to prove it. Lovely.. I don't know what else I said to anyone, so I deeply apologize..
-and on top of this lovely mishap.. we found out that my mom's mother, grandma bryson, was rushed to the ER wendesday night out of the blue do to a stroke. Yeah, it hasn't been the best week, let's just say that much.
- But all in all, things have got to look up from here, right? I mean, I do have amazing family that takes care of me, incredible friends that bring me ice cream and a movie. I really do just love life. It's just unfortunate that I had so many sad/stressful things that have happened to me this week. But I shouldn't be complaining.

"strength isn't something you're born with, it's something you find." -Emma Smith

Thursday, May 14, 2009

My wisdom will soon be taken from me.

yes, You read me. My wisdom will be gone. I'm quite nervous to be honest. Although everyone survives getting their wisdom teeth out, there is something inside putting the thought "what if I'm the exception and die or get seriously ill from this". All I know is next thursday is coming way too fast. I don't think it's the initial surgery that scares me, although I am terrified of needles and IV, I'll have to get over that one going into medical and all, but it's more the recovery. I hear "you'll only be sore for a couple weeks, it doesn't hurt that bad." Yeah. a couple weeks is a couple weeks too long. I have things to do with my life during those couple of weeks, especially the first couple days after surgery. I can't just lay down and relax and not do anything.. I need to play tennis. I need to go running. I need to sing my little heart out. I need to do anything but what I'll be doing. Sigh.

I just hope you will all remember me and all the good deeds I did in this world if I do end up dying next Thursday. I love you all, God be with you.. and me. Goodbye team.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Sunshine and summertime!

that's the way we do it
new friends and blue skies that never end
that's the way we like it
good times
sunshine and summertime!

summer is finally here! although we enjoyed a bit of rain this morning, we are well on our way to bright sun, all day long.
I've missed the feel of warmth.
I've missed the smell of fresh cut grass.
I've missed the taste of otter pops.
I've missed the company of old friends.
Summer, let the good times roll!

with summer here that also meant some sad goodbyes.
Goodbye to finals
Goodbye to Logan (for a couple weeks at least)
Goodbye to pineview #28 (best apartment around)
Goodbye to roommates :(
Goodbye to new friends
although I am going to miss all of these things like CRAZY this summer, I am very fortunate to be living with my roommates again in the fall, moving back to breath taking beautiful Logan soon, and taking kamas trips every now in then within the next 4 months. I can't live without those girls. Saying goodbye to new friends I made up there at USU was impossibly difficult. but like Jason said, you don't have to say goodbye forever; friendships are eternal. I'm proud to say I know that is true! :)
...but still.. HELLO SUMMER! :)