must be a resolution thing..

Lately I've been doing a whole lot of this...

and this..

with eating this...

while trying to get some practice on this....

maybe it's operation B.O.N,

or the fact that summer is coming
and we all know what that means..

BUT!

I can't wait for this..

or this with her



p.s. If you want to read something nerve wracking, and totally random.. read this
I witnessed it.

let's get out of this town tonight

so.. I need to get out of Utah.

really badly. I need to get out and explore the world while I actually can. There are so many places I want to go and oddly enough, I feel like I don't have time. Which I don't. Or at least I won't once I get married and such. So as of right now I have 3 goals. And I will do all I can to make these happen.

1-Go to Jerusalem with Brother Maughn and his group he takes every summer.

2-Visit Linda in London. Which then includes walking onto center court at the Wimbeldon. Enter through the same doors that Roger Federer, the Williams sisters, and many more have so eagerly stepped through in hopes to become the new champion.

3-Serve in Ecuador. Kelsie and Camille have both had this chance and I've only heard praising things of that opportunity from them since.

I want to travel. More than I ever have before. I would also like to go to Dublin and experience the Irish traditions and accents. But we'll save that one for later. Much later.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about what to do with my life. School is important but for some reason I've been feeling it's ok to take breaks. It's ok to go and do things while I'm young. I want to give my life to serving in one way or another. I want to be a performing missionary in Navuoo. I want to go on a mission one day. I want to visit church sites and expand my knowledge on the teachings and history of the church. Most importantly, I want to give my life to the Lord. I've never felt more desire to do so until this year.

Jerusalem inspired by her adventures in the Holy Land.

silly chinese.

i like Chinese food,
i like fortune cookies,
But what I like more is the fortune.

so I recently broke open a fortune cookie,
excited to see what the Chinese have in store for me.
I laughed when I read it.
(we always add "in bed" after reading them)

here it is:
"You could prosper in the field of entertainment....::in bed::"

appropriate?
probably not.

I had to share though. hehe.
and hey, maybe it's true.

missing

So... I miss this:

I miss..
the people,
the sectionals,
the songs,
the heart melting harmonies,
the support,
the comfort,
the theory,
the inside jokes,
when Ms. M would swear,
when Twitchell missed his solo. twice.
the insane amount of Christmas concerts,
the laughter,
the car rides to performances,
the mis-haps of performances,
when people showed up late, very late to a concert,
the sharing of tick-tacks, gum, and cheese-its,
the art of jumping off the chairs during AP week...


I miss Britny dancing alone.
I miss the unity we all had, almost like a quilt.
I miss dancing in those dresses.
I miss, at times, the annoyance of others.
I miss New York.
I miss being good at singing.
I miss singing for others.
I miss the womans dressing room.
(i'm not gay, I promise)
I miss chewing gum in choir and getting away with it.


I do NOT miss:
the beat boxing from the boys,
the tapping of my chair from behind,
or the high-fives.

holiday cheermister.

So maybe it's all this Christmas spirit, the fresh fallen snow, or Christmas decorations that have inspired me to write this post.. Or maybe it's simply that today I've realized a couple different things about this Christmas season that I haven't felt before.

Hospitality:
Christmas time seems to be full of it! Hence why it's one of my favorite times of the year. I'm just going to boast and brag for a second, so prepare yourself. But quite frankly, I have the BEST bishopric in Logan, UT. And anyone that knows Bishop Reed, Brother Hamilton, and Brother Vaughn can back me up 100%. I have never felt so much love and kindness than I have from these 3 men. They are incredible men of God. They go out of their way to make sure they shake your hand or compliment as many people as they can, give you a smile, or a weird semi-embarrassing smirk during sacrament meeting. These men are amazing!

Brother Vaughn invited my apartment over to his house for dinner tonight and let me tell you, it was BEYOND what I expected. (and I had some pretty high expectations) His house is beautiful and inviting. His wife, his wife is one of the most personal people I've ever met, and his kids are adorable. You can really feel the love they have for each other. They were gracious hosts and I'd go back any day!

But something sparked my interest while I was sitting at the Vaughn's and talking to them about numerous subjects. Brother and Sister Vaughn's love for each other. And believe me, they are SO in love. You can tell by the way they joke around and the way he looks at her. I'm not sure why it was so sentimental to me, but it was. It got me excited for when I find my eternal companion and having that comfort of someone that will always love me; and for who I am. I'm not perfect whatsoever. (although I deceive people at tell them I am; they believe me) But their love made me almost... ugh, I thought I'd never say this...But it made me miss that person I will spend eternity with, even though I don't even know who he is. Maybe he's not even in Utah right now. Maybe he's at USU. Maybe he's someone I've known for a long time.. but nonetheless, I miss him.

Whoever he is, wherever he may be.. I'm excited to met you. And someday share that love I saw tonight.